Lavenderism

When people think about self-improvement or raising their vibrations to manifest, they imagine their vibrations as something from their aura or the signals they put out. That’s a part of it, but if you are trying to manage your thoughts or manage your emotions without raising your internal vibration, you are only doing half the battle. Trying to keep your vibrations high without changing your internal vibration you exist at, it is like trying to treat a disease by only working with the symptoms. It does help, but you’re only doing it halfway. The root cause of why you are so judgmental and thinking these thoughts, is because your internal vibration inside of your body and consciousness is not what you’re working with.

So let’s say you have been working on raising the vibration of your aura for years. This is very good and you most definitely have moved past some issues. However you still notice yourself being judgmental, giving in to road rage, attracting petty arguments etc. This is because your aura is attracting better circumstances to you, but you are still not in a high vibrational state internally at the deepest core of your being. When you listen to those meditations or frequencies that raise your vibration, you must open yourself to them and feel them at the heart chakra, if not all the chakras. When you are meditating with any spiritual audio or frequency, you’re not experiencing the complete benefit unless you allow it to affect and flow through your entire body, not just your aura. You want to actually become that frequency entirely. The same is true with mantras or any energies you want to use to change your life in some way.

And for wealth especially, aim for thriving instead of surviving. The root chakra is responsible for survival but surviving is not wealth. Surviving is continuing to live. It does ground you in the physical reality which is good, and it does prevent worries about survival like anxiety and other things, but that’s not the chakra for wealth. In fact, there is no chakra for wealth because wealth is a social construct. From a spiritual perspective, all money is monopoly money.

In the graveyard, you do not want to step on or touch the grave of any person. This is rude at the least or it can cause them to become angry and visit you from the underworld. Another thing is that you should not wear sandals because this can cause the dirt of the graveyard to come home with them. The dirt of the graveyard in general holds energies of death and mourning and bringing that home can be bad luck.

You should never take dirt from a grave without paying for it, and even in that case you need to make sure the ghost of the grave is okay with you taking dirt from them because they may not want to help you in rituals. Stealing their dirt or trying to use dirt from their grave when they do not desire for you to, will cause the spirit to become angry with you and possibly begin attacking you. The ghosts of magicians will most likely be more understanding, but even then you should not take dirt from their graves lightly. Always leave a quarter for each handful you take from them.

It also goes without saying that you should not be disrespecting the dead while you are there. Assuming you are there during the day when there is less activity from ghosts and spirits, they can still hear you. Even outside the graveyard, it is quite possible you experience specters or apparitions manifesting in different ways. You may see vintage cars coming out of the graveyard at night, or people who look like they belong in a different era judging from their clothing. When this happens, do not interact unless you have a good reason.

Also keep in mind that if you go to the graveyard at night, you may see the god of death himself, his wife, his secretary, or some other shinigami. This does not mean you are marked to die yet, but they might just be politely asking you to leave or they might think you want to speak to them to provide offerings or requests. They can help you speak to dead ancestors or other people who passed on such as Nelson Mandela or Ho Chi Minh. The Shinigami are various and not all of them are known to have good intentions, but your ancestors should be protecting you before you go get so close to a deity.

You should not conduct a seance for a living person because this not only jinxes that person, but it causes an imposter spirit to go and play games with you pretending to be whoever. In religious organizations and cults who claim to be speaking to the ghost of a living person, you will notice they always say whatever the spirits know they want them to say, and cause them to look foolish in the eyes of everyone else. The easiest ghosts to interact with are your own ancestors and pets that passed on since they are waiting for you in the hereafter.

Think of your soul flame as your life energy surrounding you and forming your aura. At the center of the aura is you, which is connected to the spirit world since you are alive. However, think of yourself as a window. If you are a secular non-spiritual person, you are like an opaque bulletproof glass window, because you will not see through it to the spirit world, and nothing will pass or go through. If you are religious, it is like a transparent window that you can see inside of. People who are spiritual are like open windows with a screen, so they feel the wind of the spirit world and hear what is going on outside the window, but they can’t go through and only small spirits and deities can pass through them. A person who has had a third eye opening or a large ego death is like an open window, and anything can pass through them into our world.

As a human, you can work on opening (Or closing) your portal to the spirit world to see what balances you, or you can go towards other living things that also serve as portals. Trees, animals, plants, and even fish who are alive, work great as portals because they are free from ego. Talking to trees or plants allows you to energetically read what the souls of those organisms are attempting to tell you, and it also allows various energies to cross over from the spirit world and interact with you in different ways. Because you are interacting positively with the plant or animal, you will attract spirits of good intention.

For this reason, even a small plant or a goldfish can make a makeshift shrine as long as you are willing to care for it. Even objects with spiritual energy such as cowries, seeds, or incense and water have a kind of capacity to serve as portals if you simply intend to use them in that way. However, polluted nature attracts polluted spirits to enter your life and bring baggage to you. Animals that are mistreated cause evil spirits and ghosts to pass through them into our world in addition to the karmic backlash for the person doing it.

All warfare is based on deception, and class warfare is the same. Bourgeois politics has won the war in this country by controlling all the information and narratives, so the ideology of the state has won over the hearts and minds of the people since the founding of the country. With the invention of the internet though, it is too easy for the masses to find information about the regime’s atrocities and the brutal nature of its nepotism and corrupt economic systems. Even unnecessary cruelties like the torture of animals or destruction of the nature and native lands, are compounded on top of imperialism, a plutocratic regime that is a puppet for corporate interests, and law enforcement organizations comparable to the gestapo or the klux klux klan. The police in this country have a job to either make the population fear the regime, beat them into complacency, or for those who resist to kill them. Anyone who advocates for democracy or protests in the United States is labeled a terrorist, and put on a watchlist if not assassinated by the regime. Despite all of this, the deception that occurs in society is so extreme that modern people do not realize how severe is the brainwashing put onto them by the media, educational system, and even their national holidays which celebrate imperialism and genocide.

There is no way to resist the regime and capitalism without public support. We must awaken the people to the genocide being done against them by the US government. The US government has violated every right of the people of this country and uses any opportunities to murder and kill its own citizens. Pandemics, wars, food deserts, natural disasters are all examples of situations where the regime uses neglectful genocide to murder its own population. There are so many class enemies who advocate the continued genocide under the excuse of taxes or the economy, but there must be enough information on the internet from us, to help the masses choose the correct policies.

Modern people must also let go of the idea of pluralism. When the bourgeois go up, we go down. When we go up, they go down. Their privilege is mutually exclusive with the well-being of everyone else in society who actually has to work instead of being a silver spoon parasite all day. Make the people understand this, and everything else will come naturally. Liberals are told in school that wealth is infinite, when this simply is not true because there is only a certain amount of value spread out within the economy of a nation. The enemies of our social class obviously have the wealth to create propaganda organizations such as PragerU or Fox news to push the narrative that they somehow work hard or are more deserving of wealth than the average person. You need to spread awareness of these ideologies on a level that is competitive with dystopian levels of propaganda and brainwashing. It is not easy but this is what needs to be done in the current moment not only in the US, but other bourgeois states.

I did not intend to leave my body, but somehow I ended up in my living room without it. I looked out into the backyard, and I saw a bunch of bright colors that I could not see from my physical eyes, and flowers that have not grown yet. I also saw my cat, who reacted to me as if I was there physically. At first I thought I was in my house, but then I realized I forgot my body in my bedroom. I felt light, just like a consciousness floating around my house as I floated back to my room and went back into my body. It was awkward at first because I wondered if I would be able to get back inside, but eventually I felt myself returning. I was able to move my feet at first, but I was kind of paralyzed from the waist up since this was my first time projecting and I have no experience of doing so. I got up, and I felt as if I had gotten up too fast as I was rushing to get my cat some food since she was meowing for me and trying to wake me up by walking on the bed. I felt dizzy after that, but it wasn’t too bad I just had to walk a bit slower.

I get paranoid when I am outside of my body, because I get the impression that if I leave it behind it will get stolen. Maybe this comes from being materialistic or viewing my body as something I own (quite literally). I know it’s unlikely something would steal a physical body but it felt like leaving a gold bar in the car just like an open opportunity for thieves.

However, just the experience of astral projection helps anyone put their lives into perspective. Not identifying with your human opens up a lot of possible paths you have and lets you look at your skill sets from a higher perspective and allows you to break the illusions of the problems you have in the current lifetime. It also really helps to divorce your consciousness from your mind since always being so immersed in your mind can make it difficult to separate these. Especially for those who are neurodivergent and are always thinking, separation makes it more clear they are different. As you do this more and more, you can go farther and the transition back into your body becomes easier each time. Don’t do anything crazy in the beginning like going around the world or going to the spirit world, but you can build up your astral projection skills to eventually get to that point.

In modern times, you can go on Youtube and find so many tutorials on how to be masculine, how to be confident, how to act manly etc. However, these videos are fundamentally flawed in their concept, because they are not working on the basis of all masculinity which is testosterone. Testosterone is the basis of all those actions you consider masculine, for obvious reasons. However, modern societies have manipulated their ideas about how men should act to suit various economic and political needs. The illusion of independence (Despite relying still on a larger society) can punish those who cannot provide for themselves and reinforce the concept of social darwinism. Outside of primitive actions like hunting, reproducing, or fighting there is not very much that we are innately programmed to do that is not somehow conditioned or decided by society.

Masculine energy is compared as more logical and structured than feminine energy, but this seems to come from modern capitalism. Masculine energy manifests in this society as providing for yourself or for a family. Being grounded, analytical, focused, and passionate are good examples of masculine energy as well. It is also carnal and physical compared to feminine energy which is emotional and sentimental. Modern people view them as conflicting, but both are required to have a healthy balance regardless of gender expression or identity.

Another thing to remember as well is that at the end of the day, our gender is determined by genitals and hormones at birth, assuming you are not trans or non-binary. It boils down to sex and temperament towards your desired gender. As an extension of this, it also affects the role you play in your family once you have children. Masculine energy comes from this, and anything we add on to it is just a social construct. Additionally, trying to block people from accessing things that relate to arousal or trying to stop people from having sex or romance is blocking them from masculine and feminine energy since testosterone and other hormones are produced during sex and romance.

The Spider of Locks is the goddess we associate today with shoplifting, assassins, crimes, and other things that you generally would want to get away with. Those who are attracted to her are usually untrustworthy, but there was once a time where paradoxically, followers of the goddess who were virtuous and honest actually frustrated her by making it difficult for her to fulfill her purpose.

The Spider Goddess attracted a small following during the times of mystery cults, and this caused her to become revered as a goddess of thieves. However, this religious veneration towards her caused her to be unable to steal things or sneak around, as her followers wished to follow her wherever she went and always shouted for her to ask for blessings or grant her offerings. She soon became frustrated with those faithful to her and asked them to leave her alone, but more would always come to her secret temple where she hid other fugitives.

One day, the group attracted so much attention that their temple was found, which caused an outrage from The Spider of Locks. “You have turned my den of thieves into a place of worship, and for that you are to leave and never return!” she said to them, as she commanded them to immediately leave unless they wished to sneak around and steal. Only one third of her followers remained, but those who stayed were those she could help, which were assassins, thieves, and generally shifty and cunning people.

Before Temujiin conquered so much of the world and his traces gave birth to a new god from his energies, the god of war was an older and more cruel deity that was once a king in pre-colonial Mexico. He had done something during his time alive that allowed him to challenge whatever god of war existed before and take his place. He brought along to hell all those who had committed suicide after his death to be with him in the afterlife, and he ruled over a large pyramid in the underworld that he treated just the one he had on Earth.

Eventually, the god of war became bored with his existence. He was not making anything happen because he did not see godhood as anything besides an easy immortal life. He became bored with what he had and eventually when Tayang was formed as the spirit of a tiger in Hell, he saw that he could easily defeat this man and take the title of the god of war from him. He challenged him to a duel and before anyone could think, his sword had slain the god. Tayang immediately rose to become the new god, and those who followed the old god that had died immediately had their bodies decompose leaving them as nothing but painted skeletons. They were expelled by Tahyang from the Steppes of Elysium and ended up wandering various parts of the underworld. The slain god is said to have survived in some way and his old followers continually attempt to revive him.

When I talk about cultural appropriation, I’m not including petty little things like you hear people saying on social media just to start arguments because I am not here for that. Those conversations are for liberals to feel morally superior to whoever else. I will pick up my stuff and leave a conversation like that. I am also not talking about cultural appropriation in the context of exploiting people’s culture for money or other reasons because that is outside the intentions of this newsletter. To clarify, I am talking about the desire some people have to emulate other groups of people or nationalities. This happens a lot in the New Age community for reasons I will get into.

When you see someone doing this or if you find yourself doing this, you should probably think about what characteristics specifically you or that person see in the other culture that you want to emulate. If a person is doing noble savage and saying things like “They are happy with so little.” That's obviously problematic, but this is a hint that they subconsciously realize that their life is complex and materialistic, and desire something they perceive as more meaningful. When you see a person such as a New Age practitioner wanting to emulate India/Nepal or some other nation, it is most likely because they realize their society is devoid of spirituality and want to emulate the ways of those other nations, which leads to romanticizing and appropriating of traditions that become divorced from their context. Some people feel offended when their faith is deconstructed this way as well. At the bottom of trying to emulate these foreign cultures, there is always a question of why you want to emulate that foreign society. There is a huge elephant in the room sometimes as well, seeing as how India uses a caste system while South Korea and Japan are dystopian societies where people are worked to death. These places that people love to appropriate are not usually the freest places in the world or even the most well off. Whatever aesthetics you see need to come with a healthy dose of reality.

The reason for the desire can be a lot of things. Maybe you like traditions you see and wish you had your own. Maybe you like the lifestyle of a place or you resonate with attitudes you perceive people of a foreign place of having. Another thing that happens is that with foreign dramas and television, people develop a desire to insert themselves into Korean dramas or Anime which leads to people who want to be Japanese or Korean. They are quite literally trying to insert themselves into a foreign culture or even genre of media. You may even see modern teenage girls trying desperately to be Korean. This is usually accompanied by desiring scenarios similar to what are depicted in the media.

You should reflect with them and ask them why they have an affinity for emulating foreign cultures and what they expect to be different if they adopt those ways. Once you get it out of the way and realize what characteristics you actually like from your perception of a culture, you can work on emulating it yourself in your own appropriate way. In severe cases such as that of Rachel Dolezal, you may even have a dissociative disorder where past trauma is causing you to feel dysphoria or discomfort over your own identity.

The opposite for non-white people may also be true if they consume media and culture from the west which makes them see the western world through the idealized world of fiction, and this can lead to a desire to be western. The dynamics are a lot different when a person from a non-dominant culture wants to emulate the dominant one. In this case, a person from the third world may use western media as a form of escapism and perceive they can have a similar life to those displayed in media, even if the reality of the bourgeois economy, white supremacy and western imperialism will always stain whatever life they choose to have here. Western media towards the lumpenproletariat of the third world is almost like a form of brainwashing to make people think American life is superior.

Today is an extremely reactionary holiday. You probably will not even be listening to the radio without hearing some off the wall propaganda about the US being the best country or some other nonsense. Besides American flags everywhere you look, and not a single one is on fire. It is a good day for isolation and meditation to avoid the insane amount of propaganda that is going on outside.

It is very difficult to talk about the people you will see if you need to go out today for groceries or work, but know that many cult recruiters and political extremists have a license to fly their flag today without repercussions. Whether it makes you offended or alienated, today is not a day to leave home at all if you can avoid it.

It is safe to spend the day binging Netflix, on the computer, or even meditating. This is not a day to celebrate anything as far as I know, but there are a lot of other things you can do.