me_irl

Borderline personality disorder is a whole ass beast and I'm so sorry you've been struggling with it. I've heard there's a specific version of cognitive behavioral therapy called Dialectical Behavioral Therapy that's been modified from CBT to address BPD specifically. I'm not a mental health therapist so past personal experience I feel limited in the advice I can give. I have had some success thus far working with a therapist who specializes in my specific mental health needs (late diagnosed ADHD and Autism) that I've developed a decent relationship with. We're working with CBT and it's been helpful in catching the runaway anxiety spirals I've struggled with since childhood, as well as reprocessing general negative lines of thought about myself and the people around me.

I hope you find peace and balance in your mind so the need to hide from yourself with the company of others is diminished. Not only because learning to give yourself grace is healing, but because It's so much easier to find genuine connection with the people around me when I'm not driven by fear.