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The original was posted on /r/amitheasshole by /u/Ok-Day-6722 on 2024-01-23 07:17:33+00:00.
So, little backstory;
I do love my dad, but I don’t consider him to be a good person.
He can be rude, misogynistic, short tempered, entitled and selfish. But he can also be kind and generous.
I’ve had trouble with alcohol, because of a few bad things happened to me.
This was during the time when my grandfather past away, my mother was already interstate preparing the funeral.
I’ve found whenever I’ve done something wrong, he would always take it out on my Mom, even though she didn’t do anything wrong.
He found a bottle of wine in my room and was very angry.
With my Mom dealing with the death of her father, I didnt want him blaming her, so I did what I thought was right at the time: I told him why I drink.
A year or so prior I was SA’d; I had a lot to drink that night, it didn’t matter I said no, they didn’t care. I had to push them off me for them to get the message.
Fast forward a few years later; we find out my father is having an affair, during the divorce he brought up a couple of reasons why the relationship ended; this was a document sent to be read by the judge.
He included my SA. He said that I “ was told not to tell him and it impacted my mental health” ( not true, I begged my mother not to tell my father ) and he made the worst thing that ever happened to be all about him.
He actually tried to use my pain to further his own agenda.
I hate that I still love him. I hate that I made things so much more complicated for my mother.
I’m pretty sure I’m the asshole.