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The original was posted on /r/cfs by /u/Hello_ME_23 on 2025-01-24 02:05:39+00:00.
Earlier today, I left my boyfriend to spend time away from home, thinking it would be good for me. Last weeks we had a lot of tension, pointledd discussions and everyone told me to leave him. I cant just leave him, so I tought of a break, just some weeks apart. So last night I came to my parents house.
But now, I’m in so much pain, and I feel completely overwhelmed. I haven’t experienced this level of pain in months, and I’m really struggling. It feels like I made the wrong decision. I think I focused too much on what wasn’t working in my life instead of what was going well
I’m dealing with a ME flare-up and a PEM crash, and it’s been a lot. Earlier today, I was in such a panic when I said I would leave him and packed my stuff. I had a full-blown anxiety attack, something I haven’t experienced in a long time. I couldn’t even speak, I kept breaking down into tears and gasping for breath. It’s terrifying to feel like this, and now I’m realizing how much I miss the comfort of home. I know realistically that my partner would be here for me, helping me breathe, comforting me through the pain. Why did I leave? I feel so stuck right now.
Has anyone else experienced this kind of situation, where after making a decision, you feel like you’ve made the wrong one? How did you handle it? I just want to find some peace right now.
Can I go home tomorrow? Or is that just to bipolar? The whole purpose of this was to do what I wanted to do, what felt best for me. But this doesnt comes close to even feel good, obviously I have reasons that I wantrd a break, but this situation is less ideal What should I do? I feel completely lost and stupid