It makes no sense. I am a rational man. Or at least I was a rational man, until that opera rapper opened her mouth and obliterated all logic and reason from my brain like a high note-powered nuke.
There's your mistake. You believed you're a rational man. But who told you that? I bet it was the rational part of you looking at itself and ignoring the rest of you.
Humans go through life making irrational decisions (in a good way, irrational is not a problem in itself) and the rational part of us claims "I did that and this is why" despite actually having little input in the choice until after the decision was made.
It's the arrogant one in the meeting who says nothing and takes credit afterwards for the parts that worked.