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I’ve done alot of mischievous and unkind things throughout my education time (k-12) I made fun of people, bullied people, stole from people/stores, hit people, kicked people, did things to annoy people, and just overall did stupid shit to cause problems all because it either felt cool or because I thought it was funny. Some of these were things I did because my friends did them, but some were just me being stupid on my own. I am now 21 and recently I have thought about all of this and feel awful about the things I’ve done because I know it has affected people. I wish I could go back and have never done any of it. Is something wrong with me? Am I a bad person?

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[–] [email protected] 3 points 2 months ago (8 children)

Well, whether or not it makes you a bad person now is up to you.

Regret, shame, they're a great start, but they're not enough to make you a good person.

Number one is taking steps to make sure it doesn't happen again. Yeah, some of that is fixed by getting older and developing more. But not all of it. The proclivity to follow others alone is something you have to root out of yourself.

But a big factor is what you do with what already happened. Have you tried to make amends? Not everyone will want to deal with you again, and even those that will give you a chance might not accept any apologies. And you have to accept that, because an apology to make yourself feel better isn't an apology, it's a continuation of your abuse to others.

You fucked with people, now you gotta make it right.

[–] [email protected] 1 points 2 months ago (7 children)

I had stole money from my brother in the past and recently I have paid him back for it and apologized to him. As far as the other things they happened when I was a little kid at school. I remember the people I effected but I don’t know how to get in touch with them to make amends

[–] [email protected] 3 points 2 months ago (5 children)

I recommend against searching for people to 'make amends' for a few reasons.

They might not remember it. Your attempt could trigger forgotten old memories, causing them stress you don't intend.

They might not forgive you. Are you prepared to handle that? You make a gesture of good faith and they reject it, how to you react? That's a rhetorical question, don't actually answer it because no one knows exactly how they will react, it's just something to consider and reflect on.

Trying to make amends would be you, trying to seek resolution to a conflict created by you, hoping for someone else to forgive you. Notice a pattern there? It would be you making things about you, which might be seen as a selfish humble brag or some may think it is part of a scam of some kind and trust you less.

It might turn out that the people you seek out have turned as bad as you once were, or perhaps they always were and you never noticed. Your efforts would be wasted on them.

That brings me to my suggestion. Move forward. Learn from your past mistakes to prepare for a better tomorrow. Do good things now, try to find ways to do it without getting any attention for it.

Don't make your good deeds a badge to wear because then it loses its significance. An anonymous kind stranger is better than a politician donating to a fake charity, if that makes sense.

If you happen to run into someone you once bullied, apologize sincerely. If they seem down on their luck, ask if you can help in any way but don't put pressure on them. You wouldn't want them to feel ashamed for receiving help, right?

From now on, try to be a positive force. Do what you can to ensure the future has less people like you once were and more people like how you hope to be.

[–] [email protected] 2 points 2 months ago

Thanks. I really appreciate the advice

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