Off My Chest
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You definitely deserve love as much as anyone else.
It sounds like you’ve got some serious self esteem issues that you need to work through, but you absolutely can come out the other side happier with yourself.
If it’s an option for you, I would highly recommend talking with a therapist about your self image.
I've just started therapy today, I had an intro session earlier. I'll try and bring this up but like I said in the other comment, I have this "internal moderator" for lack of a better word, and there are things that are "allowed" and "not allowed".
I’m glad to hear you’re seeing a therapist, I’m sure with time they’ll be able to help you work through your internal moderator.
Best of luck to you!
It's a defense mechanism, a learned response to mitigate a negative social encounter through self-censorship. On one hand, everyone does this to a degree. But on the other, try to think about how that makes you feel. Does it seem like you can't be authentic with anyone because of it?