The last few years have been harder than ever to clinge to any spark of hope. It feels so weird to go on business as usual in personal life. But what's the alternative? Depression won't save anything or anyone out there. I think I do what I personally can. I don't think it matters, but what to live for, if not ideals and believes? But the weight of hopelessness grows regardlessly and probably will keep growing.
I don't write this to get attention or pity or whatever. I write this, because I know countless people out there feel the same. It won't be fine. But also, you aren't alone. Living with dignity in a dying world is brutal. Don't feel too bad about it!