LoamImprovement

Yeah. Like this is not news to people who have been paying attention, America has never not been the bad guy.

It probably is, but based on how they've been selling America out alongside Republicans for the last few decades, a lot of them also probably think they personally can bug out to wherever before shit hits the fan. We'll see, says the zen master.

I don't actually know that I am yet, but I've spent the last decade or so sort of dissociating. I never really liked looking in the mirror, I just see a ghost staring back at me, and I think I would like to look less manly, even if that doesn't necessarily mean like a woman. I joined an LGBTQ+ community and started trying some different gender expressions recently. I bought a skirt and some long socks, I started shaving all my body hair, I've thought about different names. Not a lot of it's stuck, but I do like the way my skin feels shaven. I just still feel like a kind of dumpy mid-30s balding white guy though. I don't even think I look particularly bad objectively, but I do know I personally don't like the way I look now. A friend of mine started drawing a mid-30s tech worker bunny boy who turned himself into a long-haired raver with a fat ass after I started talking about it and now I'm trying minoxidil and I'm hoping to get on Finasteride and maybe E soon, I'm hoping it'll give me nicer hips and a butt, and if I happen to grow (bigger) breasts, well, it wouldn't be the end of the world. Maybe I'll like them, and worst case I can always bind or get a mastectomy.

The more I talk about it, the more I realize the things I say are very eggy, but I don't know if that's actually what it is. Like, I just want to have hair again and feel cute and, for lack of a better term, fuckable, instead of constantly comparing myself to the guy with no life from South Park. I guess we'll see where this goes.

Shockingly it's still alive, and even moreso there's still porn, albeit softcore and/or censored with links pointing to Bluesky and/or patreon. There are also pornbots that pop up and follow me every now and again.

Slightly better than usual, work is going well since the merger, they're about to take some duties off my plate since I'm taking on more in other areas. Notwithstanding that the next four plus years are going to be fraught with political turmoil, I'm cautiously optimistic about my personal life.

I got one and I've been watching old DVDs on my puter

Yeah I don't trust these fucks. I didn't before but I still don't now.

"Creating and Bringing value" = Maximizing our ability to squeeze productivity from the chattel without them knowing how badly we're fucking them over.

Yeah, the silver lining of the whole gaming industry fallout is that the indie game scene has never been better. I was lamenting the fact that we hadn't had a good top-down zeldalike in a long time, echoes of wisdom notwithstanding even though the formula is pretty altered. Someone pointed me in the direction of Master Key and it was an incredibly satisfying time. Almost like it would have fit in perfectly between LoZ 1 and Link's Awakening.

Holy fuck. I can't come to grips with how close this hits home.

I kind of feel that - I think the issue for me is that there's a lot going on in each of these games that is tangential to the primary gameplay loop that on the surface isn't obligatory, so if you find it not to your liking you can choose not to engage, but avoiding the secondary activities locks you out of some rewards for the PGL often and severely enough that you do feel obligated to engage to the point you can get these rewards. Especially in the gambling minigames, I often feel relieved when the points you buy end up being the same points you exchange for said rewards because it means I can just engage in the fighting a little more instead of having to gamble.

Case in point, I'm playing Infinite wealth right now and it feels like a big step up from the first Like a Dragon, but I'm still finding myself pulled into the Sujimon quests even though I personally don't like monster tamer games. I don't even know what the rewards are but half of the map icons are raids and trainers, so I feel like I should at least be putting time into maintaining a team with the ones I can catch just from grinding out fights for Job XP.

Oh I know, I've been giving a lot lately to communities affected by climate change induced catastrophes. But money only does so much to alleviate it, and it's certainly not fixing root causes. Soon I will either have nothing left to give or more people are going to need it than not, myself included.