I swear on my life I'm not trolling. And I don't know if that word is offensive. Last I checked it was the actual medical term, but I think I've seen people take offense, so I'm sorry if that's the case.
When I was young, maybe 12-14ish, I always felt I was kind of incomplete. For a while I sincerely wished I had been born with both sex characteristics. After a while I figured it was just a phase of adolescence and went on to live a happy cis life.
Since then I got my gene sequenced for one of those ancestry things, and they didn't tell me I had Klinefelter's or anything. But I always kind of wished deep down I had a penis, testes, vagina, womb, breasts, and a beard. Maybe I might just be some kind of transhumanist, cyber prosthetics seem cool.
But I can't shake that feeling, like loss, like I'm supposed to be both. Is this a real thing? Is it valid or just natural human curiosity?
I'm fine being cis, I don't think my spouse would find me as attractive if I were to get affirming surgery, if that was even an option. And life would be way more difficult for me being so conspicuous, especially since I live in the US right now. I'd stick out anywhere though. I could go my whole life without pulling on this string, but I feel compelled to.
Again, I swear I'm not trolling. I really feel this way.
The strict gender binary is an arbitrary assignation of stereotypical behaviors loosely based on statistical averages. That is to say, its made up nonsense.
So yes, you should believe the evidence of your own senses before the opinions of people who are still trapped inside that unhelpful and counterfactual social construct.