Melbourne

throat feels like a gave a razor a BJ. Do not rate.

I love when you meet a masseuse who take it personally and see you as their personal project. Like a mother who eyes your dirty kitchen, roll up their sleeves, and make it their mission to right the wrongs. They just get to work, they don't nag about how you've hunched your shoulders too much and get your muscles all tense, they just tell you through the pain they inflict on you as if saying "you see this? rrright there? yeahhhh" and you're thinking to yourself "will I make it outta here? is this where I die?"

Well... that was a very circular and unproductive discussion with the boss and admin person. I'm left absolutely no clearer about where things are going and the business still wants to throw everything into my court without providing me enough information to make a decision. I guess that alone is information in itself. I'm so sleep deprived it was probably not the best frame of mind to understand what they were getting at anyway.

Part of me is so over it all I'm tempted to just jump onto fb marketplace and start selling off all my stuff NOW and get away and get out of Melbourne within a month for a clean break and reset.

Buuuut okay, first things first. Start with today. ~~Make toastie.~~ ~~Eat toastie~~. Drink water. Do the image-insertion thing that I said I'd do (that'll be about 3 hours of mind numbing shit). Meeting at 3:30. Enter timesheet. Feed cat. Then go the fuck to sleep.

i am getting up

it is better to pack a random bag of dirty clothes to the laundromat and miss a number of items than not do any laundry at all.

I don’t really like the mint and tea tree body wash these days.

After years of using multipack soap bars in cardboard I saw the recycled plastic bottle and thought to try it again… the smell isn’t too overwhelming but it’s weirdly moisturising with the feeling of a residue and even on a loofah or puff it doesn’t actually clean you well?

Using it up as shampoo on my hair.

I can hear a singer playing an acoustic version of Faith by George Michael. Such a lovely evening 💜

Anyone here have recommendations for a good yoga youtube channel for a beginner with very low flexibility, dodgy knees and a lot of fat?

I know this has been discussed in the Daily thread previously but I forgot to save it.

I wish I could knit and play Baldur's Gate at the same time...

Edit: I feel like I could. It'd just be during cut scenes and combat. But sometimes they're so quick I won't be able to do the knitting.

Laying on the couch, wearing nothing but my oodie is such a pleasurable and decadent experience, it should be illegal.

sigh bliss 😘

My guest has overstayed their welcome. I don't know how this fly got in but it's been hanging around and popping up randomly in the last few days but I found it following me to the loo just now for a two-ey and I think that's the last straw.

Been super aroused lately, smashing blocks of chocolate. Fuck me I'm a pig rn. 🤢

You know what chatGPT is good for...? Coming up with inane responses for a PDP.

Fog pretty Image of foggy Southbank over yarra

Fuck family are annoying. Mum still refuses to do some ten minute reads about having a trans kid so she still treats me like a fucking man. My son was asked to house sit for my sister for a fortnight, so she just plonked herself along. Now I can't stand to see her because it fucks with my head so I'm missing quality son time, which I've been missing a lot, cos he's terrible at messaging, but super present when we spend time together. He was the first person to know I'm trans and has been awesome.

Mum called me daddy yesterday and has a very, you're a certain aged person when I was excitedly showing them how my baldness is receding, I've told her a dozen fucking times I'm a 14 year old girl mentally right now. Can you please show the same sensitivity? Acceptance of my new superficialities are nowhere near enough. Her and my sister have been very no, you tell us what you're going through, even though I've explained multiple times that it's painful to talk about the insensitivities they show. There's so much support around for families of trans people, I've given them the advice and showed them how to access it. As I've stated again, multiple times, if I had autism or was blind, they'd be across it of their own volition, but this all comes across like they think I have some kind of choice over this. I've had so many shitty experiences with being trans in the last month and it's starting taking a toll.

Journal entry no 311 dated 8/8/23 kthxbye

4 degrees? What do? Why? I'm not built for this climate 😦

So we've switched over to a better Internet provider than Optus. But for some reason some websites work and some don't. Like YouTube is fine, but Mastodon just doesn't want to work. Twitter kind of works, but like other streaming services don't work. It's very weird. I'm getting better downloads and uploads than I have previously, but this is so weird

Japchae for dins tonight.

Have all the bits including mushrooms.

Been following a different one normally but tonight giving nagi's recent one a go. Seems legit.

Finally braved the cold to open the gates and it's still bloody foggy out there.
In other news, the cats now love Coles Purr cat food. In fact Zooki loves it so much she shoved Sammi out of the way and helped herself from her plate. Usually it's the other way around...

Online Orders 1 Week Delivery Challenge update: order 2 of 4 has arrived today.

This is the one which came from South Australia too, Auspost are killing it! My 2 remaining orders are from Catch so we'll see how that goes. I know one of them is being shipped by a 3rd party not Catch themselves.