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It's been 2 years, I have no idea. I definitely know that I didn't consciously choose to start hyperventilating and losing the edges of my vision... It's not like it's anything I worry about now, it was a highly situational kind of anxiety. I know I just need to suck it up and make an appointment.

Reasonable, logical thoughts would lead one to think that way... But unfortunately, anxiety works in mysterious ways.

I had a good streak of going every 6 months for almost a decade. One day I had an appointment in the afternoon, and was on my way to the office when a line of severe thunderstorms rolled through, it was super windy, crazy thunder, and pounding rain.

The thought of sitting in the chair with tools in my mouth if the power went out was enough to send me into a panic attack. I had to pull over. I calmed myself down, turned around and went home and no-showed the appointment and ignored all their calls... That break in the routine made it REALLY hard to get back into the routine. I'm in the process of making a lot of other positive changes in my life right now, so I just need to be strong and include the thing I don't want to do but I know I NEED to.

I'm currently in the process of somewhat neglecting my dental needs... I brush every day, but I'm pretty sure I've had a cavity or two for a while, and haven't been to the dentist in almost 2 years, despite having dental insurance... I just REALLY hate the dentist.

I know I am going to regret it someday soon. Maybe I can use this as a kick in the pants to finally at least try and make an appointment lol

I got my first at 31 (33 now). I have 2 now, and have plans for more. I was constantly wishy washy about what I'd want, and decided to just do something simple for my first, I got the outline of the James Webb Space Telescope main mirror on the back of my calf. Figured someday I could either fill it in with some cool space-y patterns, or incorporate it into some other piece. For a while I thought about filling it with parts of the first JWST deep-field shot, and also getting a bee with a space helmet (since the mirrors are hexagonal it kinda looks like a honeycomb, and bees are cool), but I couldn't figure out any way to make a bee look reasonable with a space helmet, so dropped the bee plan lol.

My second, I got a Figbash riding a unicycle above my left kneecap at a halloween flash event on Cape Cod to benefit the Edward Gorey House museum. I love my silly little guy and it's made me want some more silly little guys. Specifically, the "tines" fork driving a racecar from the valentines day Teen Girl Squad episode, and a design I saw for Richard Scarry's Lowly Worm driving his apple car, but the car was a skull instead of an apple. I can't actually find any photos of Figbash healed up, and I can't get to him when wearing pants so I can't take one now, but he looks great and I have no regrets.

I've never been to a large outdoor festival, but I saw Nekrogoblikon a few weeks ago (again, for the 3rd time), and each time I see them, they step their game up so SO hard.

I don't actually remember the specifics of the first time I saw them, but it wasn't anything crazy special, besides having John on stage. This was like 2018 or 2019 after they released Welcome to Bonkers.

The second time in 2022, they toured with Gwar, and that was great. Dickie Allen filled in on vocals because the vocalist was sick, which was pretty awesome.

This last time, they headlined. Fog machines, laser light show, a giant inflatable goblin head, and a constant supply of balloons to bop around in the air. The pit was the biggest I have ever seen at the venue (I go to a lot of shows there), the energy was insane, and it was super courteous and there was not a ton of crowd killing, because there was barely any crowd that didn't want in on the action. I think their vocalist maybe left the band? Because Dickie Allen was back lol. Hearing John Goblikon say "Well, you guys moshed SO good on that last one... Do you think we can all do a wall of death?"... It was like that viral Knocked Loose video, except smaller because the venue is smaller. It was the most fun moshing I've had in a long time.

I already hopped to piefed! Figured I literally just started posting with my lemm.ee account yesterday, might as well move my account somewhere else asap.

I say give it a go.