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A few colleagues and I were sat at our desks the other day, and one of them asked the group, "if you were an animal, what animal would you be?"

I answered with my favourite animal, and we had a little discussion about it. My other colleague answered with two animals, and we tossed those answers back and forth, discussing them and making jokes. We asked the colleague who had asked the question what they thought they'd be, and we discussed their answer.

Regular, normal, light-hearted (time wasting lol) small talk at work between friendly coworkers.

We asked the fourth coworker. He said he'd ask ChatGPT.

It was a really weird moment. We all just kind of sat there. He said the animal it came back with, and that was that. Any further discussion was just "yeah that's what it said" and we all just sort of went back to our work.

That was weird, right? Using ChatGPT for what is clearly just a little bit of friendly small talk? There's no bad blood between any of us, we hang out a lot, but it just struck me as really weird and a little bit sad.

Hey! For the last few years, I'd do five months of sobriety at the start of each year. My drinking got much more noticeably out of hand towards the end of last year, and I subsequently failed to maintain a sober stint at the start of this year, and that then rapidly spiralled into reckless drinking, endangering my job and further damaging my financial situation.

That sort of scared me, along with some other symptoms and a general sense of unease, and so I committed to a year of sobriety. I chose a defined timeframe to keep my goal achievable and give myself an actual defined target, but am secretly hoping to "trick" myself into seeing how sobriety feels for a long enough time to want to maintain it afterwards.

I've been journalling, and I've been working hard on improving the small things in my life I neglected while drinking, and the big things that I believe could have been contributing to my drinking. I do feel much happier, much more in touch with myself, much more grounded, and the people around me have commented that I seem happier and calmer. Things feel like they're moving in the right direction.

I went tonight to a party for a friend, celebrating an anniversary. I had a fine time, chatting and joking, but I couldn't stop thinking about drinking. I know the cravings will pop up at random times, and I've made an effort to stay social during this stint and have been in situations with alcohol and not caved. However, the temptation just did not stop building tonight. I was already trying to work out ways to justify drinking. I played the tape forward, I tried to think about how embarrassing I can be when I get drunk, I tried thinking about everything I was proud of, I tried changing the group I was talking to and joining a new conversation to get some dopamine and distraction, but I couldn't shake it.

Eventually, I resolved to make my excuses and leave. There was no drama or anything but I just felt, and still feel, pretty defeated. It was weird. It was worrying.

I spent the whole journey home catching myself fantasising about drinking when my year is up, or even before. Romanticising the idea of going out into the city, to some quiet bar one random night, and having "a few". I know what a lie that is, and how it's not real, and how I don't want to blow up my life any more, but it's just really got its claws in me tonight, by the looks of it.

I'm asking here for a few things, really:

1. Is there anything I should or could be doing to solidify my sobriety and build a stronger foundation? Relying on my own willpower seems like it'll fail at some point inevitably.
2. Should I be pushing to solidify my current sobriety if I'm clearly so conflicted about it? Am I even actually conflicted?
3. Do you ever stop missing it? It's not even just that I miss the "good" parts. I miss the bad parts. I miss the miserable hangovers, just feeling like absolute shit after torpedoing my finances and sabotaging my plans for the day. It's so weird.

For context, my last drink was April 21.

Sorry for the long post. Thank you all for reading, and for the work you're all doing in this community! IWNDWYT!

My boss thinks it's very cute to talk about AI as much as possible, and today asked if I'd heard of "vibe coding". I said yeah, and explained to my coworker that it's where you get a chatbot to write all your code.

My boss has just announced that he's vibe coding. I know the project he's working on. It took us months to put that codebase together, and there are a lot of very complex functions and plugins in that site that we've written to integrate with all the systems our client needs the site to use.

What am I supposed to do here? He's just letting a chatbot go rogue on the codebase. Do I just leave him to it with the full knowledge that it'll fall on me and my colleague to repair all this damage, presumably while being accused of breaking the site in the first place? I need the money from this job so unfortunately leaving isn't an option at this stage.

Hey all! I just played my first game of 40k recently, using a ~1k Thousand Sons list. I got pretty roundly stomped by my opponent using Space Marines.

Admittedly, I didn't really make use of rituals or stratagems, and I'm sure we missed plenty of unit abilities, so it may not have been super representative.

Either way, are there any TSons players here? I'd like to pick up some tips if there are any 👀

cross-posted from: https://lemmy.world/post/19359566

I've collected enough for a 1K army, just need to get through and finish up the painting now. Slightly regretting choosing an army with so much trim as the first minis I'll paint, and even more so that I painted them in slightly ugly colours first and am now having to repaint the Rubricae... But I am excited to finally table them sometime in the future!

I've collected enough for a 1K army, just need to get through and finish up the painting now. Slightly regretting choosing an army with so much trim as the first minis I'll paint, and even more so that I painted them in slightly ugly colours first and am now having to repaint the Rubricae... But I am excited to finally table them sometime in the future!

Will we see another ultra-consistent performance from Verstappen? Will Alonso finally get his 33rd? Will Lewis in the new Mercedes claim a victory, 16 years after his maiden win?

How will Ferrari bungle the strategy this weekend?

I've been watching the 02 - 06 seasons back through on F1TV Archives, and occasionally the audio will drop or there won't be any sound from a driver radio or pitbox interview, but it's usually pretty rare. However, I'm watching the first race of the '18 season at the moment, and the audio is really weird. It's seemingly slightly desynced, and the commentary cuts out often. The actual car sound is near-silent, too!

I'm wondering if it's just me?