Melbourne

Every now and then and I let myself think for long enough that I start wondering: is this enough? Am I a total fuck up? just a little bit? does it matter anyway? how could I be better? what if i...? and then my distractions blissfully take over and I forget all that for a few weeks. Ho hum

Goodnight everyone ❤️ Here's to a better tomorrow for us all.

Curlcumbers and a tomato.

I did not have Trump commandeering Gaza, ~~kicking out all the Palestinians~~ straight up demanding ethnic cleansing, and then proposing a property development to turn it into a ‘middle eastern riviera’ on my Trump bingo card. I don’t know how my mental health is gonna survive the next four years. I think I need to switch off the news. If ww3 breaks out can someone let me know, so I can go out and stock up on toilet paper. Ta.

Bail refused for the bird graffiti artist, but somehow is granted to violent offenders in some cases.

Am I missing some legal nuances here?

losing weight takes so long 😫 I expect I have to do at least another 6 months of this meal replacement diet

I really feel like this past year I've been feeling the heat a lot more. It's not meant to be nearly as hot today as the last three but I'm still feeling it. Maybe I also need to drink more water... might have to do with the ADHD medication too...

Made very very minor progress on uni stuff but brain has otherwise shut down after poor sleep last night. I have developed a bit of a nasty attitude to this project, sadly. It's now just this awful traumatic thing I need to get out of the way. Not how I intended to finish this degree but w/e.

Should be ready to finally get a belated start on my uni fieldwork tomorrow at least. Even half a day is better than nothing!

Jesus christ did my domain hosting pick the wrong month to renew. $167usd = $266aud

I have a new dinner bowl / plate and used it to make nachos and have grossly underestimated the amount of nachos it can hold.....it will be a race against time to finish this code review before I slide into a sweet sweet cheese coma

Came home to the ant invasion continuing, but they were better organised this time and gave away their entry point. Suckers. I hope I’ve stopped it this time.

Another account manager quit.

And then there were 2....

Ulcers in the crease of your mouth - the worst. Almost as bad as ulcers on your inner lip that rub up against your teeth. Time to whip out the ol' Kenalog again I guess... If they ever come up with a medication to heal mouth ulcers in 24 hours I'd do anything to get it in a heartbeat.

So smoky outside. Apparently it’s coming from Tasmania!

Yeah they can keep their raise.

@[email protected] was right.

Just finished a meeting with the new manager. I'll pass.

Have 2 more final stage interviews this week then I'll pick the best offer.

One hour on hold to get through to my water provider. The reviews online are hilarious, most of them complaining about hold times and bad customer service. Yet it doesn't look like anything's changed to improve that. Just make the customers wait, it's not like they can change water provider if they're not happy with the service.

Edit - start of the call said 25 minute wait for call to be answered, it's now been 1.5 hours on hold. What a joke.

I put Burnout: Paradise on the boys' laptop last night and it works like a charm. It was a pirate copy because you can't by the original anymore. I don't know how Fitgirl gets away with it because it didn't just install, it was downloading additional files to complete the installation. Like, from where? Where is she hosting these files and how haven't they been tracked yet? Amazing work

Last night my aunty who is the executor of the Will of my grandma messages me to try to influence me into making my other family members hurry up with reviewing financial documents so that the will could be executed and distributed to everyone.

She tried to influence me by telling me that she was going overseas which would see the delay of the will and also was telling me how much interest I would be missing out on because everything was sitting in a trust fund.

She ends the message with "Please settle asap".

I was trying to stay out of all of the family politics but even I'm suss about the financial documents not being up to scratch but overall I've taken a neutral stance and choose not to be involved to help my stress.

For all the complaining and being the poor victim that my Aunty says she is, she's trying to also drag me into the conflict.

I really hate that.

Anyway I left a message telling her it's not up to me and that I'm not in contact with the other members of the family but I really thought about not responding or telling her not to drag me into the conflict as I've made it quite clear I didn't want the stress of it.

Tomorrow as per the BoM:

'Winds northwest to southwesterly 15 to 25 km/h tending southeast to southwesterly'.

They should really condense that and just say 'yes wind'.

Taking the rest of the week off because I can. Also have 2 interviews this week AND another manager asked me backfill a role in his team (higher pay) for the next few months AND urged me to apply.

Home from Seaholme. It has barely changed since last I went a few decades ago. It's so quiet. It has big skies and quiet streets. It's a bit out of the way but in regard to transport and access to facilities it's the same. Carlton is just crappy for everything other than coffee, parks and university.

Ate some toast for breakfast and only after noticed some blue mould specks on the remaining loaf. It’s been nice knowing ya all. Pray for my guts to survive the day.

Haha! He's gone on a packing spree and now I don't have the right paper to do his anniversary card tomorrow.

Big convo at my husband's work yesterday. A lady came in to the tearoom with a Vegemite and lettuce sandwich for lunch. Which the aussies declared "I've never heard of that".

So it prompted my husband to ask me if I'd ever had this. "Shit yeah. It was mother's favourite lunch to make for us. I never liked it because after 5 hours in a hot school bag the lettuce was pretty sad".

He can gleefully skip into the tearoom now and announce that it is indeed a thing because his wife said so. 😂