A) Be honest, at what point did you expected to receive money and not give access to chatting or picture exchange? You where selling something, it was meant to be personal, unless you are okay with the whole concept it was very flawed from the start. Shocked Pikachu face meme and everything. I am surprised he was onboard with the concept : it seems that both you and him are uncomfortable living through this process. Maybe rationally he thought he was okay with it but emotionally can’t handle it. Like je changed his mind.
B) Your boyfriend will have seen this as a lapse of judgment. Before you can convince him your judgment won’t ever fail like that again you need to figure out if you are uncomfortable from the behaviour itself or from your boyfriend reaction to it. He can’t ask you this in a respectful manner but you need to destroy in a permanent way all social media account involved in this process. Then talk to him honestly what changed in between the original discussion of a sugar daddy and the recent rejection of it. He was just as naive as you? Open communication.
If I was in your boyfriend shoes and in love in my twenties i would have tried to make it work… in my thirties i would most probably have left but wouldn’t have accepted any form of online sugar daddy to begin with . I know this whole comment is pretty harsh but i believe in telling the truth. None of this means you can’t be a descent person outside of this naively managed situation.
This is too chaotic to read, it says more about the state of your mind than the content you tried to express with this word salad. Don’t let the anxiety spiral, it’s not worth it. Let’s assess if damage was done :
It’s very simple : did you or did you not respect the sexual and emotional exclusivity with your boyfriend from the date you discussed being exclusive? Outside of this you are free to have conversations with anyone, just let your boyfriend know emotional stuff before anyone else. Also if people you had sex before are still in your life somehow, he should learn this from you and the sooner the better.
Relationships are diverse but the one thing that transcend any diversity is : you should feel like a team with your partner. Do anything to cultivate trust and if trust was broken you can only wait to see if he can overcome the issue and trust you anyway. Sometime it’s gone forever and you can only learn how to behave better in the future : no blurred lines in regard to sexual and emotional intimacy. You don’t only want to be factually exclusive but also to avoid appearance of infidelity whenever possible.
No consensus about the question but if i had a FWB, the sex with the FWB would stop when date number two is planned : keep things calm in my own head if it works, go back to FWB if it doesn’t.