They might be doing some maintenance because logging into my world account also gave me an error message.
Most comments seem to be focused on the logistics of applying and financial concerns. Those are important, but before that I would strongly suggest you evaluate your reasons for doing the program and understand your commitment. For one, interviews and applications will want to know this anyway, and two, these reasons can be tested when things get difficult.
A few insights: school has changed in the last few decades. Things are more lean and there is more expected from students. A big divide if you consider a PhD program is whether it is a researched based (eg R1) or teaching school. A research based school is more competitive and honestly feels like a business sometimes. How many papers can you crank out? Can you devote extra time to helping research professors so that you get better opportunities?
There is a changing (and unclear) landscape of software. Sources libraries and PDF organizers can be helpful. Most the students I know are using some form of AI to read or write papers, and they make edits and such. There is ongoing debate on the ethics, but people are using it regardless. If the precedent becomes writing papers at the efficiency of using AI to structure the papers, the level of expectations again rises.
Also be sure to have a support system in place. Things can get overwhelming and frustrating, and leaning on people when needed will be important.
Start with really pondering your reasons for doing the program and see if a program would fit those needs. And it would be a great idea to reach out to current students at least a couple of different schools to get their input on how the program is. There is only so much you can gain from reading the website. If it is really what you want to do, start looking at the requirements and email the program director or assistant to see if you’re missing anything.
Currently it’s a little buried, but hopefully could get uprated. You can get to that by going to the community, click any post, click the three dots, click Community dropdown, and then either Sidebar, Unsubscribe, Block, etc.
First, I’m not a counselor but I highly recommend one. It is so useful to sort things out with someone. It sounds like you are conflicted between two bad options: conform to fit in, or be patronized. Those both suck and I can see why that can cause anguish.
Is there any way you can be around people that dont fit those two categories? Someone that you can relate to and feel more like yourself?
And some of what youre describing sounds similar to the Black exploitation in the film industry. People described their experience that they needed to act a certain way to “be Black” or they were not accepted. Just an idea, but could you put your art out there in a more anonymous way? The feedback you get might be more authentic, if that’s what you are looking for. Ideally you wouldnt need to do this, but unfortunately it is what some authors and artists have done to navigate the race-based treatment.
I hope the best for you. It’s a shit world sometimes.
This is the onion-ness we all deserve
Thanks for the recommendation, I’ll definitely check that out! I found that when searching for “philosophy,” I get a lot of history of philosophy, and the ones that do bring new discussions are not usually picking themes that in all that interested in.
If you’re on iOS, Arctic made some big updates that make it arguably better than Voyager IMO. The biggest thing that got me was color picker themes, so you can literally make your own theme (and save and share them). Also the markdown is pretty great now. Voyager is still pretty solid and very good performance and features.
That might have been me, I always ask for more visual options haha. The colors really make it more pleasant to use. Anecdotally, the performance seems better with transparencies off, using opaque colors. 
Thanks for the tip for testing the colors. And sharing the preview. I’ll try editing my post to have the previews included.
Also on a personal note, make sure you pace yourself and take breaks. There will always be more to improve and sometimes I think people feel that they need to push themselves. It can wait. Two of my favorite Lemmy apps kind of just stopped flat, and my hunch is that the developers got burnt out.
Wow, thank you for all of the hard work. The themes had me so excited (especially Cremé) but then I saw a… theme maker option?? I literally spent an hour fiddling with a theme and found a combination that I like.
Here are the theme files, if anyone wants to try them. Also it’s the first time sharing files via Proton Drive, so let me know if it works:
https://i.postimg.cc/ncSpFqWK/Lemmy-Artctic-Bookworm-Day.png
https://drive.proton.me/urls/TH0K1XWCY0#2UbAuFxjvF2g
https://i.postimg.cc/BnN0ZxPq/IMG-9458.png
https://drive.proton.me/urls/P57DPY0MMC#aOxfn0nAFLMG
Eventually it would be great to have the labels possibly be easier to figure out what it is changing.
Thanks for the tips. I’m going to try that file card. I have never heard anyone mention one, but if it helps the files last longer, I’m all for it. Do you add some vinegar or something to the card as well?
That’s weird. Mine is loading posts from as recent as 2 min ago and I’m post from the app now.
For those interested, the book Why We Sleep by Matthew Walker has very understandable details about sleep. He touches on the waste removal during NREM. He initially became interested in sleep by finding that Alzheimer’s was first predictably detected in changes in EEG sleep waves before symptoms of forgetfulness began.