rabber

My daddario cable just started wigging out and this is like the 5th cable ive been though in 7 years. I'm hard on my gear in general. What cables should I order next in particular?

30 year old male, divorced last year after 9 years. Got dumped because I drink too much apparently. She was supposed to move back to her home country but ended up staying in this city.

I'm a member of the music scene and so is she so all my friends are her friends. So naturally because I'm not the pretty one, she gets all sympathy and I'm now a lonely motherfucker rejected by a lot of people I once called friends.

She hooked up with a dude who is an actual drug addict and last night. While trying to watch the band, they're making out like 5ft behind me. I shouldnt care because these people are quite literally losers compared to me but I guess I'm jealous someone cares about her and nobody cares about me.

When I went home last night alone I actually thought about ending things. I don't really know what to do going forwards. Do I just end my hobby of music because I can't deal with my jealousy? Every gig she is there and she's got a line of guys wanting to be with her while I'm left to rot alone.

Should I sell my house and quit my job and move? That's what I was up all night pondering. I feel as if this place is too small for the both of us, and she won.

Let me explain.

Coming from windows, if i have my monitor split into halfs with firefox, for example, youtube on the left and lemmy on the right, and I am typing on lemmy, I just click on the youtube video on the left once to stop/start it.

On macos in same scenario, the youtube window is "inactive" and then i have to click it once for the window to be the active one, and again to stop the video. It feels like my mac is not responsive because I expect the first click to stop the video. It's been weeks using a mac and I still can't get used to this for some reason.

I know this is nitpicking but is this normal macos behaviour or can this be changed?